Bernice Dy, 18, Philippines.
Thoughts that cannot be spoken end up here.
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Mess We’ve Made by AJ Rafael
—Calming yet full of anger. Confused.
(Verse 1)
I’d been so strong for so long
I could handle everything
Now that you’ve gone through that door,
I can’t see anything
Oooooohh
I swallow my pain
Oooooohh
Nothing’s the same
(Chorus)
Let this come crashing down
There’s no way to fix it now
We’re lost in the crowd
and our love will soon decay
Just look at the mess we’ve made
We both know that we can’t stay
(Verse 2)
I was hoping that this would last
I guess i was wrong
Ohh
I planned out our future together
But now that’s all gone
Ohh, oooohhh
Another mistake (another mistake)
Ooooohh
We’re both to blame (we’re both to blame)
So just let this come crashing down
There’s no way to fix it now
We’re lost in the crowd and our love will soon decay
Just look at the mess we’ve made
We both know that we can’t stay
(Bridge)
Ohh,
Everything we ever had now is ending
I didn’t wanna have to say our goodbye (didn’t wanna have to say goodbye)
Baby, It’s best we let this go
Trust me
(Chorus)
It’s better if we just let this come crashing down
There’s no way to fix it now
We’re lost in the crowd and our love will soon decay
Just look at the mess we’ve made
We both know that we can’t stay
I’m sorry but I can’t stay
Just look at the mess we’ve made
Oh the stars. Used to give me hope. Somehow, I’ve lost it.
#andthedramastartsagain *sigh*
And no matter how much it hurts, I just want you to be happy. :)
HAHAHA. Oh, the irony.
Maybe it’s a bitter wind, a chill from the Pacific rim
It’s been a while since I’ve gone on tumblr… Kinda miss it. haha
In a way, it’s kind of a good thing. Not being on tumblr means I’ve been fine. Like, legit fine. But I guess there’s always a limit for everyone. Not everyone is that fine all the time. Tumblr helped me cope a lot this year. And I did realize that my whole year pretty much revolved around coping: living in Cebu, school, UP, college, bisaya-speaking people, going home, missing home, missing people, bittersweet drama, leaving, and everything around it. That’s a whole lot of coping for one person to take at once and I can’t believe she still tries to keep a smile on her face, hoping no one notices. No joke, it’s difficult. But I guess it pays to at least try and make your life worth living because there’s a whole lot more to learn.
Thank you 2011 for a whole lot of things. Thank you for giving me the experiences that I deserved. Although there were some I did not understand, I guess I did deserve it. Thank you for showing me the people who stayed even if I left, who still connects even when I’m away. Thank you for the new people that arrived, the ones who I can add to my circle. Thank you for making me realize the more important things in life. You made me realize how stupid you can be following the wrong path, as much as you thought it was the right one. You made me realize the consequences of my actions. You taught me how to breathe, even when it seemed like someone was choking you. You made me realize that sometimes, to be able to undersand something, you have to go through it. You can’t just sit there and watch. And most of all, thank you for just passing already. It’s been one hell of a year and it’s about time to start over. heehee.
It’s a new year and I guess it’s time to make newer and wiser decisions. I’ll let go of whatever happened in the past, whether it mattered or not, but I can’t and I won’t forget what it has taught me. Everything happens for a reason. Whatever is meant to be, will be. If not, eh di not. haha. It’s so easy to say all these lessons, but it takes wayy more time to completely understand it, accept it, and live it. I’ll admit I’m still in the process.. I’ll be fine, in time. It’s ironically nice taking time to ponder after trying to forget everything. In times of confusion, you have to look back at what you’ve gone through and how you dealt with it. If it’s something new, you shouldn’t be afraid to explore. Step out of that box. Stepping out of that box has been a constant struggle in my life. I guess that’s the 2012 resolution.
Anywho, this post was merely for expression purposes, not for anyone to read but in case you do, well, you did. Kinda my normal-yet-not-so-normal emotionally unstable and super malabo self at the moment after watching my ever so dramatic show, Vampire Diaries. Now, off to sleep. Goodnight!
(Source: -theperfectmistake)
(Source: dirty-dope)
Things happen for a reason. It would be nice to know that reason.
I guess they really do happen for a reason. But maybe a perfect explanation would be nice.
To think I kinda trusted you with everything…
Don’t get me wrong, I still do now. It’s just.. overwhelming and somewhat unexpected. :o
Ohwell. :)
